Dear sweet baby Ariana,
Why don’t you want to come out? Today I had my last appointment with the doctor. This appointment was to decide whether or not he would induce me this coming weekend. Here is what I found out. You are HUGE. Seriously, based on ultrasound measurements you weigh 9 pounds and 5 ounces today at only 38 weeks, 4 days. That is crazy. Your head measurement was out of range. You’re a very big girl. But the problem is, you’re not getting ready to come out yet! Dr. N. said that you haven’t descended at all, you are not moving down into my pelvis. I’m still just dilated to one centimeter. That’s not terribly abnormal since I’m not even 39 weeks pregnant yet, but as big as you are, I just want you to come out now!
Dr. N. said it was really up to me as far as whether or not I would be induced this weekend. He didn’t really want to advise me either way. He couldn’t promise that I wouldn’t have a hard time delivering you if I let you stay in until 40 weeks or longer. But he is pretty sure that the labor will be long and hard if I am induced this weekend. Neither choice seems great and he wasn’t willing to tell me what I should do. He actually used the word “brutal” when describing what an induced labor will probably be like. But he acknowledged that you are really big and so delivery wouldn’t be easy either way, and the bigger you get, the harder that would be.
Ultimately, the decision was mine and your daddy agrees with me that inducing this weekend seems to be the right thing to do. This is pretty much how things went during my pregnancy with your big sister and I was so hoping to avoid it this time, but apparently my body just grows big, healthy babies!
So the plan is this: I will check into the hospital on Saturday evening at 7:30. They will give me some medication to ripen my cervix and monitor me to decide whether or not I’ll need a second dose of medication and/or pitocin as well. Then in the morning, Dr. N. will come in and assess how things are going, break my water, and crank up the pitocin and hopefully you’ll come before dinner time! So unless you come sooner than that, your birthday will most likely be December 1st.
I am praying a lot about this delivery. I am actually really nervous about delivering you since you’re so big. My main fear is that after a long and hard labor, I might have to have a C-section. I am fervently praying that won’t be the case. I am asking God to please allow me to go into labor naturally before Saturday night, and if that doesn’t happen, I’m asking that my body will respond well to the medications, that the labor will progress smoothly and quickly, and that the delivery will be relatively easy. Above all, I am praying that God will keep you safe and healthy for the rest of this pregnancy until you are home safely with me!
I am tired and huge and uncomfortable. And I am SO thankful that God has allowed me to carry you and be your mommy. I cannot wait to have you in my arms! I already love you so very much and can’t wait to tell you how special you are and how you are a miracle from God! See you soon!
Love, Mommy
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